animal embassy

this is patchy.  

he's the alpha and howls like a dying whale.

i need an idea or something to do a shoot with.  im so uninspired lately...

extra early morning updatee

i haven't slept in 3 weeks

which is a little dramatic

im running on venti lattes, trident gum, and benadryl 

im agonizing over a boy who ill never get 

who barely even looks at me.

i miss high school and the security. 

i wantwantwant you to notice me though

we're all money hungry and we step over our friends to get what we want.

we're all the same.

happy almost spring

well here's a before/after finally.

i'd go into a full blown rant but it'll come out naggy complainy.  

so i hope everyyone enjoys the springggg :D

nuevo macbook

so i've had really great ideas for photoshoots lately except its just really hard getting props because it's been really snowy out sadly.  we got like a foot of snow the other night, but class got cancelled because of it. 

i bought myself a macbook though the other day, it came in the mail today.  so much for saving for my car. ah welll. 

night  everryoneee

BURRRlington

So Im up at vermont visiting schools and were staying some place in southern burlington. were up here looking at Johnson. the schools uhmayzing and i wish we could stay up here longer.

i have to make a pros and cons list probably tomorrow on the train ride back home. everyone up here is reallllllly friendly and down to earth which is great, because its a change from the stuck up snobs that live in my town in connecticut.

on the way to johnson lovely guy flipped me off because apparently going 60mph up here is the new 20. lovelyyy. but anyways, on the way back we stopped at the lovin cup cafe which had the most amazing food and coffee and then the forget me not store. which is sort of like thirft store/tj maxx but designer clothes. i tried getting my mom to try cute shirts on and that didnt work out too well. haha we got lost on the interstate because im an idiot and dont know how to read street signs correctly so we ended up getting lost in burlingotn for about 20 minutes only to find out that the whole thing just sort of loops back around to where we were originally going. it was a really great day thoughhh.

were going out to eat in about an hourr or so. we rented the most amazing white ford focus. i wish we could drive it back to CT with us. i love it up heree. ill post some shots when we get back home, my moms been taking pictures all day, i let her use my point&shoot.

im gonnnna go great readyyy. byeeee

i am a pirate you are a princess

BEFORE/AFTER

it feels like theres a hole in my heart recently. my exish started talking to me again a few nights ago and for the first time that we talked in god knows how long i dont want him back. obviously i miss him, but i dont miss him enough to get back with him. too much drama with all that. and go figure that to top it off i like the guy that may or may not find me totally eccentric. i'll see how that plays outt.

your heart is an empty room

before/after

so i got into johnson and im going up there on sunday. 8 hour train rideee. haha im so excited though.
me and my exish had like this three hour conversation last night which always ends up in this really horrible shiteous moods. and i dont really know why i keep doing it when he doesn't do anything about it. so as of now im just not gonna care about it anymore because its in the past for a reason.

i'll do landscape shots for a change once i get up to vermont. it's been too bitterly cold in connecticut for anything. hopefully it stays this nice out for a while.

happppy birthday to me

I love how this one turned out. It took 3 hrs, postprocessing. major cloning and rebuilding

I'm officially 18 as of yesterdayy, it feels really weird and I'm sort of freaking out because I'm growing up, as weird as that sounds. I'm scared/excited at the same time. Today was a really good day though. I had a few people over for cake and pizza and me and nicole went sledding. hah which didn't last very long. I love my friends, they always get me really good books. haha.

i wish everyday were sunday

hope everyone hada loveeely sunday

i finished applying to college and i got out of work 2 hours early and now im on the search for a second job.
2009 is lookin pretty goood.

i changed the levels and added a layer mask to this.